|random february moments|
My nature loves strength and detests weakness. It repels against quitting and failure. I will work my bum off to accomplish whatever I set out to do and do it 110%.
But let's face reality. I'm not strong. I fail -often. I mess up, give in, let go. Being strong is hard. Being strong all the time is impossible.
And when I can't be strong...when I'm weak. I end up discouraged and wondering why I even try.
But here's the problem: Why I end up becoming discouraged, is because I'm trying to be strong. And reality is?
I don't have to.
I don't have to be strong, I can't be strong. I will fail.
But I serve a God who is all powerful. Who never fails. Never backs down.
How much time do I waste trying to obtain a strength that I cannot gain instead of accepting that He is my only source of strength?
And when I realize -oh this is so major- when I realize that it is when I'm weak and can't do it on my own...it is then that I enter that time of intimacy of learning to depend on Him and trusting His strength to be enough for me. Then, my friends, I can glory in my infirmity. Because it is drawing me closer to the One who tends for my soul.
"Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong//When I'm blind, You shine Your light on me//Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability//How refreshing to know You don't need me//How amazing to find that you want me//So I'll stand on Your truth, and I'll fight with Your strength//Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me" -In Me, Casting Crowns
To those who are fighting to be strong...you don't have to. Quit fighting for something you can't obtain. Rejoice in your weakness because it is in a heart that acknowledges it can't go on by itself that Christ's strength can be made perfect.